Tuesday, June 06, 2006

numb..?

here's something that i wrote about a week ago, on my first night signing on... hahaha..


The sea’s around the corner… sort of.. I’m in port actually, onboard puteri delima… just finish unpacking some of my stuff…. Lots more to go.. probably finish up tomorrow. It was supposed to be 4 months of sea, and 2 months of pure holiday enjoyment. Instead, it was 4 months of sea, and 3 and a half months of pure holiday…. I’m not complaining, but then just now when my counterpart who I am relieving handed over his duties and showed me around the engine room, I realized how everything seems like something new… even the compressor which I strip naked the last time I was onboard seem to look like some scary machine waiting to slowly devour my life in the next 4 months…. I guess everything has its setbacks.. anyway.. it didn’t really bother me much.. yesterday for a few hours of my life I felt a bit lifted.. Al’s gf Diana sent out a simple hello from a friend. It might just be sarcasm, or really just a hello and maybe I’m wayyy getting carried over by this, a bit stupid for that matter.. but still.. it felt .. nice. Hehe, blissful’s a bit like it as well. Maybe in time it wouldn’t be just sarcasm… maybe in time it’ll be a simple hello followed with a small chat, maybe even a trip to the GSC. I don’t know.., maybe I’m just bored… and a bit lifted… hahahahaha..i’m repeating myself now. Blissful..? who am I kidding. I better get some sleep….

shit... and here's one of those things that reminded me why i like one of those mellow rock sound so much...

And if the moon and stars should fall
They'd be easy to replace
I would lift you up to heaven
And you would take their place

…..

And if the sun
Should ever fail to send his light
We will burn a thousand candles
And make everything alright

-warrant, I saw red.

it's like goo goo doll's iris all over again for me.... and that was wayy too long ago... wtf..????!@#!%@#^$%^**!!