jual2...

looking for these hp laptop spare parts

blossom....

as my beard starts to grow faster by the second... and this belly seems to expand itself day by day... i realized(if u just realized,what i just realized..haha can't help it.love the song..) that time does fly... or warp itself as everything in life starts to become more and more divulge... how politics seems to become more and more obvious... of how crooked everything is... of how money seems to become the epitome(loved this song too..) of one's life... how lust seems to conquer the brain more than it should, where feelings starts to matter more.... where we never cared but we worry so much for something. what was practical seems so complicated(avril, sigh**)... what choices we have seems to always be wrong... why we even think when we know what to do... why am i even mumbling when it's all just crap... it's a grown up world. something we once wish for, as everything that's fun is above 18,or 21... but along comes the viruses and spy wares, you realized that everything just creeps up on you... slows you down... **sigh*** wish i was back in dorm 6 where the only worry i had was the night's warden(or the weird noise from petet's side of the bed..hmm..)... and that never even mattered...

what does matter though... is my car... which keeps draining my pocket every chance it has. my family, as i start to feel more and more responsible for them...because i can. and my sweet sunshine... my single orchid... my midnight lullaby...hopefully my other half. those matters more...
i'm too shallow, stupid even to talk about politics, or the downfall of the economy by the U.S manipulation of oil prices. but at this worried times, like any other pakciks,makciks or typical malaysians.... where we always depend or listen to our leaders.. we want to be assured... we want our leaders to think out of the box. we know 1+1 is 2. we want something more out of them. they are supposedly world class leaders for !@$%^!! sake.
And we believe what we see... and all we see are pathetic leaders who act all strong and wise but in truth seems clueless of whats happening...who seems scared of the oppositions next move more than the global threat. thats what us shallow people see, and guess what... we are the majority of malaysia. so change our perception. and we might see things differently. we don't just care about the bigger picture.. we care every single frame... so fix it.

i never cared so much about politics..or any big crisis around the globe... yes i'm that selfish. I love living my life knowing i am doing a greater good somewhere.. even if its a simple deed of picking a can. so if somebody like me(and i assumed millions others like me) seems to care... then i guess a change would be good. you suckla paklah. sorry,had to say it.

anyway.. i'm back onboard now... family, friends, a car and a girl... it was the perfect holiday. sigh... thanks guys, and err..love :))
till the next tingling, or just the next reform.. later guys.

monkey business....

stay

it's good to be home...

hit...

'cinta' is in the air..haha, or at the cinema i guess... anyway, it's a good movie to watch if you're with a special someone...sort of.unless you're gay or if you're with a group of gay guys, you can always watch it alone in the cinema,if not..wait for the cdla..
lucky for me.. i had the excuse of watching it with a special friend.. which makes it a special movie for me(hahaha).. its a beautiful film. words are kept right where it hurts or felt the most, the colour and pictures are a pleasure to the eye...(love this one scene where there's cows in the background..huhu..) its heartwarming and entertaining.... plus i get to watch it with that someone :)
its one of those films where you leave the hall smiling.seriously, you won't mind telling people that this is a malaysian film.

anyway..on a different note, nowadays i'm watching heroes...my ears favoring to the fray's how to save a life(again n again n again..)..playing with nothing but myself(hahaha that sounds funny..) as my xbox's tvs broken....cruising in my brand new with a scratch 2.0 civic(while crying along the way as i pay the bill..), realising that my heart tends to pound faster nowadays as i hope, or wish while listening to that one sweet voice..sighh. yes youppe..i willingly become your target practice...

'cinta' s in the air ehhh..hahaha..banyakla..

and then there were 9...(well.... 11 actually , 2 cadets gone m.i.a !@#$%^&!!)

-Puteri Delima, fellow engineers August 2006.

fly....

I’m now on top of the monkey island… the highest point on the ship… I’m without a red cape.. but I am ready to fly.. I will fly.. I will fly…. I’d probably die.. well.. actually I’m in my room.. but I still wish I could fly.. if Christopher reeves made us believe that a man can fly..brandon routh just made me wish I could fly… the film was great.. I don’t care what the critic says.. I once again bow to Singer… the most powerful superhero ever created.. and it was magnificently presented by Singer. I like every single bit of it.. the way Supes stops the plane.. stop a bullet with his eye.. puffs away fire.. the way he gaze upon the sun.. the way he flies…watches the earth from atop.. carries a whole continent on his shoulder.. he was god among men.. and Singer knows it. And when his on his knees, it was still a great scene.. luthor being lex luthor.. Kevin spacey was no mistake. Superman returns after 5 years in space… and when he did his first save in the movie, I felt the lost. That was how great Singer did with the movie. I felt like I was reading a masterpiece by alex ross. Where every picture spoke through itself.. there was little dialogue, but every action speaks.even I myself am out of words.. I really am a happy guy today.. being in bintulu I didn’t expect there could be superman returns in the Cineplex… but there was. Though it was no gsc.. there was nothing to complain about. It was worth every damn penny… though not as good as spidey.. but still a masterpiece. i really need to fly...

numb..?

here's something that i wrote about a week ago, on my first night signing on... hahaha..


The sea’s around the corner… sort of.. I’m in port actually, onboard puteri delima… just finish unpacking some of my stuff…. Lots more to go.. probably finish up tomorrow. It was supposed to be 4 months of sea, and 2 months of pure holiday enjoyment. Instead, it was 4 months of sea, and 3 and a half months of pure holiday…. I’m not complaining, but then just now when my counterpart who I am relieving handed over his duties and showed me around the engine room, I realized how everything seems like something new… even the compressor which I strip naked the last time I was onboard seem to look like some scary machine waiting to slowly devour my life in the next 4 months…. I guess everything has its setbacks.. anyway.. it didn’t really bother me much.. yesterday for a few hours of my life I felt a bit lifted.. Al’s gf Diana sent out a simple hello from a friend. It might just be sarcasm, or really just a hello and maybe I’m wayyy getting carried over by this, a bit stupid for that matter.. but still.. it felt .. nice. Hehe, blissful’s a bit like it as well. Maybe in time it wouldn’t be just sarcasm… maybe in time it’ll be a simple hello followed with a small chat, maybe even a trip to the GSC. I don’t know.., maybe I’m just bored… and a bit lifted… hahahahaha..i’m repeating myself now. Blissful..? who am I kidding. I better get some sleep….

shit... and here's one of those things that reminded me why i like one of those mellow rock sound so much...

And if the moon and stars should fall
They'd be easy to replace
I would lift you up to heaven
And you would take their place

…..

And if the sun
Should ever fail to send his light
We will burn a thousand candles
And make everything alright

-warrant, I saw red.

it's like goo goo doll's iris all over again for me.... and that was wayy too long ago... wtf..????!@#!%@#^$%^**!!

sad..sad.. day

i am still awed... my heart in frustration, my brain felt err.stupid? myself uncertain of what to say.. its not about money..nor is it about a girl.(the girl.?haha..-nonsense)its not about boredom.. its hope.. and the sad feeling of disappointment. in 2000, i jumped the gates of the malay college to look for something to watch in j.j's room... then did i came across x-men... shocked..and a bit of ashamed i guess, one of the biggest comic book title being made into a film and i never knew about it.suspicious at first..seeing how x-men does came close to being a potential xrated movie.. or maybe a stupid b grade movie using the name. i bought the cd.(it was a win win situation..-evil smirk..) and as i saw how that star trek guy resembles xavier, watch the cool visor that cyclops wear... as wolverine lash out his claws right in somebody's face, magneto..well just being magneto... it was one of the happiest thing that happened to me. right then i really thanked bryan singer... he actually made it happen. then came x2, and with no shame i'm saying this again.. nightcrawler's intro in x2 is byfar the most satisfying intro that i've watched. i felt like i'm reading the comic book as the 'puff' sound from his teleportation keeps coming out... and with x2, it was stronger character, and a stronger plot.. and i again bow to singer.
6 years after, come x-men3. bryan singer took the job with warner bros. making superman returns.fox didn't like it so they pulled out the contract and hires a new guy... 5 hours ago was one of the biggest disappointment in my life. watching x3, i never did once felt an excitement of watching any of the characters appear on screen.i'd go like wow, juggernaut..woo,thats multiple man(madrox),cool.. its shadowcat..then thats it. there was nothing, i don't even know what the fuck's angel doing in this movie anyway???i guess singer knows what he was doing when he made wolverine cuts his claws through rouge, put nightcrawler in a broken chapel, or made magneto and xavier play chess together.. he was giving character. even when the story's are not as compelling, when the penciller knows what he's doing.. it'll be an incredible issue. as for the movies, the story can stick to whatever it wants as it'll be like an elseworld issue for me, but when its told as bad as what i've just watch...it's plain disappointment.
i don't know..bryan singer is either laughing his hats off... or just plain sad. as for me... i'm still sad. !@^$&^()!!!!!

MCOBA RUGBY

4 colours of the rainbow... i wish :) without a doubt, cool.

isolation

After about 2 and a half months of holiday.. this has to be the longest time i’m spending at home… thus the boredom and this current update.. it usually consists of a week at home then off to cyberria for about 5 days just so I can catch up with the latest movies in the cinemas..… then another week at home only to come back to cyber for another 5 or 3 days maybe to top up my dvd or game collection… and it cycles on. But this time its been about 3 weeks at home.. and hopefully off back to my ship(well maybe 2 or 3 days in cyber first...)
ok....cyberria..what can i say. its always fun staying in a house full of friends.. at first it was because there were acai, shoul, al and riq… and olie’s a frequent comer as well.. later on rodeq join in.. so when 5 out of the 9 housemates are your brothers… buat muke bodo jela.. but then.. sub, fred and po… joe as well seems to share something that made me felt really comfortable being there.. and there was always the girl issue..huhuhuhu.. but that’s a different story and it’s about 6 months ago.scrap that…anyway..… not to mention that riq is ragamuffin’s main man.. and acai’s the current bassist.... so every now and then some groupies would come to the house just to get riq’s autograph or just to get laid.. then there’d also be some girls from acai’s fanclub… coming to the house topless and we all just drool in anxiety…so..of course I’d go there week after week after week… haha merapu je.. mana ade.. it’s a sanctuary for me. I’m always more comfortable when friends are around and they’re good friends.brothers even… but everybody need to move on..shoul’s graduating somewhere around May… and next in line are po and sab I think.. I guess life goes on..

but the part about the ragamuffin is true.. riq is one of raga’s main man. And acai is the current bassist. Ragamuffin’s one of the local indie band that seems to be growing really well. Every now and then I’d try and not missed out on any of their gig’s and from the look of things, I think they have their own fan-based group in MMU all the way to sri kembangan. You have to start somewhere and raga seems to established that well enough. they’re going slow and steady right now doing gig’s here and there, now and then… even got their pictures on the NST the other day… something that shows a good start as well. Anyway.. 3 of their current songs seem to be doing pretty well.. 2 for 11, lecithin 1200mg for the broken heart, monophonic for virgo.. yes the title’s that long. Riq dgn izhar buat.... ayat power.. huhu. in some occasions you can here people singing along when the songs played, during certain coincidence you can here hummings of the songs from people who looks bored and wished they could sing it… I think they’re short of a vocalist right now… with the tunes and words that’s been pouring out of riq’s and izhar’s notebook, a good vocal can catapult them anytime(I think..err..i hope..). the next muck or bloody mary, to the next butter or disagree… who knows.. anyway.. all the best for them…

i am actually bored right now..and the fun part of mumbling about like this is the lesser part of thinking about it.. and writing what crosses me for at least i know its coming from the heart. err.. gibberish again. better get some sleep..**

lost

Last week youppe and mateen came to terengganu.. I was out of idea as to where to take them.. out of desperation I even took them to the pasar payang.. just so that if people ask where they went they can always say pasar payang…. In the end we made a last minute plan of going to pulau kapas… I was never an outdoor person. I prefer the sound of my thx speaker and the soft touch of my xbox controller anytime compare to the striking heat that’d burn my skin and the unnecessary sweat of just walking around without a purpose(did I heard somebody shout get a life…!!??huhuhu....f*** off). Don’t get me wrong, I love sports.. now and then I’d join my friends for rugby, futsal or if I feel like it, a jog around my kampung or the beach even… but a picnic or the thought of spending the night in the jungle or an island.. I love doing it in high school, but as time goes by, and as these beard gets longer, I just think it’s a waste of time. But when mateen and youppe came, I just had to go… I’m guilty enough as it is for being a piss poor host(hey,,not my fault..terengganu maaa..)
Anyway… the daytrip to pulau kapas was.. how should I say.. hmm.. satisfying? No..thats not it… complete? Still don’t fit it… its way more than my small book of vocab can express.. it was something that a baby might feel when they first walk, a feeling that you get when you first ride your bike without the two small wheel sticking out… the feeling of winning your first rugby match... if I had my first sex I’d say it’s like making love for the first time…(I think that’s the feeling you should get).. it’s one of those feeling that just make you coming back for more…. Seriously, it a fucking great feeling… I will always be thankful at youppe and mateen for making me go there.. it seriously open up a new genre of fun for me…



so now.. I’m opening up my invitation to any of my friends who wants to go to any of the island in trg.. just so I can follow them and go to an island.. again and again and again.. can’t wait for my next holiday. Youppe put up some picture in his blog..though you should ignore the stretch part of his blog…heh.

There’s this one song from goo goo dolls that’s been playing in my mind..

I wish for things that I don't need
All I wanted
And what I chase won't set me free
It's all I wanted
And I get scared but I'm not crawling on my knees

Oh yeah everything's all wrong yeah
Everything's all wrong yeah

It keeps popping up in my head… well lots of stuff been popping up in my head recently.. it started with a lousy lazy afternoon in cyber when I decided to follow shoul and his girlfriend nad to alamanda… from a lazy afternoon it turned to some cross over between james blunt you’re beautiful and lifehouse’s you & me(haha..yeahh..right.. I wish.…) but then that’s just me… what I hope to be something from howie day’s collide was just a daze… well at least I tried… though not hard enough as youppe would say.. haha.. i think its something in the line of not knowing someone enough to start mumbling about it(whatever that means..).For now I’d just let plain coincidence lead the way… and that one goo goo doll song banging my head.**sigh.. where is my f***ing songbird...?

Oh yeah.. here’s a good one…

"The minute I heard my first love story
I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along." – Jelaluddin Rumi

Man I’m fucked tonight… anyway, got that from the storyteller’s blog..yasmin ahmad herself… a bloody good blog.. as good as her advertisements and movies. Haven’t watch gubra, but sepet was something that I think will change the Malaysian film industry for the next few years(ignoring one or two rubbish that’d pop up during raya….).i’m no movie enthusiast or critics, I just love watching them… so it’s either good or bad.. did I felt it,or didn’t I? and for sepet I did feel it… so I think its good, and I won’t mind watching it again and again and again..heh. Can’t wait for gubra… hopefully nx week I’d still be in time for another week in cyberria wasted at the nearest cinemas.… for now.. just let the dice roll :) and coincidence take its toll.

reinventing

a start of something new....?

its 440am in cyber.. ac milan just beat lyon 3-1, don't really care actually(terbace result kat pc acai).. thing is, i can't sleep... either its bacause of this @#^$#$!! cough that i've been having for the past week, or because of the limited beds available to sleep.. or is there something else..hmm... maybe not..hopefully not! anyway, the other day i went and watch lucky no slevin and inside man at the cinema. kinda cool... one of those pulp fiction sort of story telling... bolela layan.. tak rugi. though it made me wonder what was the last movie i went to watch that made me felt really 'rugi'.... watching this one malay film did made me regret for life that i've ever spend rm8 on a movie(tobat tak tgk citer melayu kat wayang lagik..)and red eye wasn't really all worth it as well... so whats really worth paying my 10 bucks(11 even.) anyway?.... all those animations and comic book adaptation that keeps popping up are not that bad(spidey and xmen is wayy worth it)...now and then when there's a good novel turn movie(tom clancy's and john grisham's especially..) show's up you won't mind wasting that extra rm10 as well... cause you know it'll be good.those long hours of lotr and star wars as well was worth it.but i gusss we have to thank thx and special effects for all of that... i guess paying 10 bucks for good special effects is always worth it, even if the movie sucks(well almost...)... why am i mumbling on and about this anyway...? oh yeah.., i can't sleep.
anyway, superman's new movie is coming up. so's x-men 3... then there's pirate of the carribean2.. mi:3 as well.the list goes on for the summer...which by that time i'll be onboard one of the puteri ships(tsk..tsk..) pls let there'll be a rerun around september...**sigh..
hmm.. dah dekat suku botol ubat batuk minum nih...still coughing and not sleeping... maybe i should try closing my eyes..hmm..
*******

ooo

fuhh.. currently watching full metal panic.. collecting gundams.. listening to SO7 seandainya..reading err..nothing?oh wait..!youppe's blog(huhuhu).... eating chips ahoy!.. counting the probabilities.. hoping for the uncertainties.. wishing for a possibility... thinking... and wanting... dreaming maybe? haha..(pinch me pls..) whatever.tgh bosan nih.. supposedly going to kemaman in about err.. now..? but you know how plan goes.. especially when there are kids and families involved...so just writing in to kill some time. oh.. happen to come across a "49 facts about me something something.."(i think..) in the frenster board.i can't imagine myself writing 49 stuff about myself..lucky enough if i can come up with 5. heh.. like the number though..man... i am bored.. ops.. off now..(ohh the chilling and scary sound of crying babies..help meee.....**)..

gibberish..

today i woke up at 9 in cyber, picked up azrin at 10 somewhere in cheras.and went to watch king kong at 11(yes..11 a.m!)... midvalley was showing some of the oscar nominated films(lucky me..)wasted some time at midvalley... and went to play touch rugby with petet and friends at around 640pm(better late than never i'd say..).. after about 20 minutes of play we'd soon realised that thunder was rumbling loud and lighting was striking just 2inches from petets head(err.. some people has that effect :) ) had a 20 minute chat in the rain, took a bath at the field and off to midvalley again to watch the cronicles of narnia(which was a 4 out of 5 stars for me, cool stuff..oh..IT WAS THE LAST RERUN!) and then back to cyber as i am now.. making a short story shorter.. between that time, the climax of my life had to be either when king kong was having the fight of his life with t-rex, or the comeback of aslan from the dead.. (yeay..)

2 days ago i woke up around 11 by the heavy knock at the door by my 2 year old nephew, forcing me to open up so he can play inside. around 12 i'm holding my xbox controller cursing through every unfinish game there is..(current favourite nfs:most wanted,4 out of 5 as well..) while my nephew plays around with my gundam models and i slowly wept inside as i saw one gundam leg flying pass me... and the days cycles on... with every vehicle upgrade being the climax of the day...(wtf@#$&^%!???)
i guess this is as soulless, psycho and nerd(as mirul put it..) as it gets. but in a way its a life i'm happy with... and in the end i guess thats what count. with some of my friends keep telling me to save up a bit, and me with my opinion that money is money, whats the use in having them if i can't enjoy them.. i guess they'll be having the last laugh in the end..but hopefully i'd wise up before that. i'm still 23 for **** sake.
anyway..to sum it all up, life's good..i'm bored.. but at least it's good.. but then i'm bored.. how i wish life was better. **sigh..

ashes... :)

4weeks ago...
in some ways... songs are like decoders.. taping the lifes that we live(err..crap!)... sort of..
anyway.. i copied this whole collection of mp3s from youppe before i got onboard about 2 weeks ago.. and it wasn't about 2 days ago that i started listening to them.. scanning every single folder that i took.. and in some ways i felt like i was going back through time.. especially when i open up ash. how i missed their songs.. songs i'd hummed all day..those words i'd used.. it was the band that made me realised how good alternative was..

"Feelings are distant and I know guilt by name, It was the hardest thing Watching you slip away Oh sometimes, sometimes

Oh sometimes, sometimes

Sometimes it happens feelings die Whole years are lost in the blink of an eye We once had it all but events conspired Oh sometimes....."

one of my favourites.. not as deep... but i guess i had always loved plain simple words. which was ash. **sighh...

4 days ago...
without realising it.. todays raya.. wtf..??its 7 already.. by 8 i should be in the control room.. luckily today by 9 we can knock off..just a quick round in the engine room for today. for the sake of raya.. heh:) and luckily we have 1 person competent enough to recite the khutbah.. so.. adela jugak semayang raya. alhamdulillah.. :p and the weather's quite nice today.. and the ships not rolling as hard.. i guess it was a great day.. after semayang raya.. had some chow.. then went back to bed.. SELAMAT HARI RAYE, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN. oh.. luckily youppe had one whole folder of raya songs.. so i slept with the sound and those feeling of singing with my brothers back in prep school in 96. i wasn't feeling that bad celebrating raya onboard... was looking forward to it actually.. but remembering that feeling that i had back in 96 when we had to fast in prep school that made me miss a bit of home.. fucking raya songs... anyway.. selamat raye and selamat deepavali. maaf zahir batin!

today..
its port day in bintulu.. me with my phone connecting to the internet with a rate that would make a 28.8 bps modem sounds like heaven.... while others with their phone connecting across the sea.. talking to someone they care.. i almost had one.. that girl that had what i need..heh.. turns out it was something that i couldn't have. anyway.. called 1 or 2 friends... wish them raya.. sigh..better get to sleep then.. tomorrow's another day of work.. weh.. check out blog youppe.. poetis tahap tinggi nyer.. wish i could go a bit to that sort of level.. rather than mumbling around nonsense(about the same old girl..??).. heh:)


sometimes, lost in you,girl from mars,burn baby burn,goldfinger,angel interceptor,a life less ordinary,walking barefotted,starcrossed,shining light,i'm gonna fall..etc..etc...f***--->fav ash songs..

below is a post which i wrote yesterday(out of boredom) but didn't have the time to finish it so i saved it as a draft...
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i'm in cyber now... spending my last few days before going off to sea. my flight to bintulu is tomorrow... and my ship's coming in on the 3rd. come to think of it, i got around 24 hours before going to the airport tomorrow.. sucks...

anyway,woke up from my sleep.. 8 a.m in cyber is always good.. i don't know why but there'll always be that scent before rain that the breeze brings in.. (ke mmg nak hujann...hmmm??) gonna miss that scent. anyway.. semlm jumper mirul, daud,ghazali.. the regulars at shah alam.. had some laughs(as always...) and daud kept asking about that girl(and laughing along the way..) which girl..? some girl.. hahaha..(tanak cakp..) anyway.. she already has a bf.. and me, with a little bit of guilt i guess.. still chats around with her.. sometimes things you hope for won't always be the things you need... and the things that i need, well... i found some of it in her.. nevermind..

.....
a day later(er..thats today..) i'm in a cyber cafe(loser gilerr) in bintulu... just read a testimonial daud left in my frenster.. and a comment he left in www.1995srss2.blogspot.com(our chatroom..??huhuhuh).. sedey lak rase.. never felt so appreciated by a friend... i guess in a way, the primary school reunion was a success.. i mean now i have friends i never known i had... friends i thought i'd lost.. thanks guys.

oh.. ade buat fotopage... kat stretch.fotopages.com...

ok..chiow.

http://stretch.fotopages.com

plain stupid..

i was gazing at the ceiling..alone in my room..watching a spider knitting away at the corner.. damn spider. i smiled to myself for about a minute before i realised how retarded i look... 2 weeks ago somebody told me that she has a boyfriend.. wasn't that heartbroken..but it took me some time to realise how life's irony happens when you least want it too.. and when it does, it really hits you at the spot. ealier during my holiday i spend a lot of time with the guys at cyber...as i watch al, riq.. ptt.. and watching acai typing deviously on his phone... i realised how alone it felt.. i felt.. its been a long time to actually talk with somebody..6 years..maybe..?

'come on stretch..bole nih..' that was riqs quote..haha..
'kitorang support nih..'-cyberria's..
'rase rushing giler..' -that was somebody's quote...(damnn..huhu)
'rakus..'-err..that's petet's and mache's..
'hahaha'-kunk
"stretchhhhhh.."-shoul

ok..what actually happen was, riq help out.. the guys at cyber supported it.. the result came out..then the critics went wild.. anyway, didn't really care much cause it was just fun and games.. and alone is always better for me than being dishonest with myself.. when the chemicals just don't add up.. its no use getting the extra potion.
but that was around 6 weeks ago...and after that its back to the joypad and keyboard..(winning eleven mmg terbaekkk...)

then one day.. i met with a friend from primary school.. and what started out as a joke, later on.. became one of the best gath i've went... full details at www.1995srss2.blogspot.com.
one of the job was looking for contact no's... and 1 no particularly caught the eye... long lost crush..?old flame maybe..heh... atau mmg takde kerja..huhu. after a few msg's later..

"derah ngat mung nih... dok kohor doh..." -apis first impression..
"lekk bohhh..." -zaki's
"takdela..memain jeh.. mana ade tunang.. tapi bakalla..." -somebody's words... hahaha
"hahahahhaha.." -hazid's

**sigh... when you really want something most, it'll always end up being the things you can't have. life's jokes at its best. irony isn't it.? anyway.. two days, a few karaoke and 2 nights in a row at fasya's later and everything went to normal... still fun and games i guess(ayat cover..huhu). bole giler..

i guess in one sweet word.. desperation(jgn marah riqqq...).. haha..did i really say that.. i guess it was the feeling of wanting to be needed..being somebody's in shining armor... or maybe it was just the fact of wanting to find somebody to share something with.. i guess two months holiday without doing nothing really did made me felt a bit... lonely i guess. it was just plain stupidity.

don't really know what else to write actually...and the spider's done with its web. better get a broom..